littlemissoutcast

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love by littlemissoutcast, literature

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confused by littlemissoutcast, literature

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confused

I am confused what should I do??? Should I run from a love a love that will ruin me Or should I embrace it I know that if I do it will ruin what I have now But the bad thing is I am happy I am happy just sitting and talking to him I am scared, can you help me Help me figure out what I should do I am depressed where I am but I love where I'm at I am happy most of the time just not lately He can help me but my boyfriend Hates him, while I, I love him

life by littlemissoutcast, literature

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life

in my life i have had challenges i have had pain losses love trials and errors i have suffered and i have gained friends but one thing i will always be able to say is that i have lived i have lived for me i have failed not because of others but because of me i have lost because i didn't hold on tight enough i have loved because i took a leap of faith i have been abandoned by family because i wouldn't change they decided that i wasn't going to be what they wanted me to be so they did what they thought was right they chose not to try they abandoned me they kicked me out of their lives they turned the other cheek they did what

E.V.E.R.Y.T.H.I.N.G by littlemissoutcast, literature

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The trapped doll by littlemissoutcast, literature

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The trapped doll

Pretty little doll Left in a glass case Sitting high up on the shelf With her painted face Always smiling Looking so content Deep inside she's wondering What it all meant Why doe she have to be up so high And why is she kept in a cage All her questions go without answers Her curiosity soon turns to rage Her hair is always perfect Her make-up never smears All her hate and anger Is filling her with tears Little doll has found a friend This friend is composed of a razor's edge Someone who'll stay with her till the end Till she finally falls from her ledge

I Look Around by littlemissoutcast, literature

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I Look Around

When I look around me All I see is darkness I see water I am alone I hear hate I feel pain I give pain to relieve pain Though it hurts the ones Around me who love me It doesn't hurt the one's who I want to be loved by The one's are loved and hated by me yet They mostly scream at me as if I'm nothing Your words leave marks that will last longer Than the ones I leave by my own hand Love me as I have loved you. 11/03/03

Sorry by littlemissoutcast, literature

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Sorry

You are such a jerk I hate you get away from me, when I try to do good all you do is know me down. Well I am not going to take it anymore, I give up my life is fucking worthless to you isn't it? Ok I guess it is, get the fuck away from me you fucking asshole, get away before I have a breakdown. I normally don't like being around you, but when I am I actually like spending time with you, I guess I am not even good enough for that am I? I am sorry I can't believe that I used to look up to you but not anymore, no, not me I am through being fucked with. I am sorry for trying to be a good daughter but I guess I am never going to be goo

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Pain by littlemissoutcast, literature

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Pain

I cut myself To see the blood To feel the pain It comforts me I think of you I start to cry I see the blue I want to die To see your face Would mean the world To slow the pace Leaves my fists curled Alas, again I am alone I see the light go back to dark Again I see the world at home All the pain soon will leave its mark The marks on my arm Will begin to fade The words once yelled leave harm Those unlike the marks will never fade If you leave me now The water will come back You will soon see All the qualities you say I have, I will soon begin to lack

Time by littlemissoutcast, literature

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Time

If I had the power to stop time, I would stop it now to where I could spend every minute of it with you. I want to see you when you sleep, I want to show you something, I want to be the real me with you I am afraid, though, no one has seen the real me. The real me, Wow, how wonderful that would be. To take all my masks off and reveal the hidden me. The world would be surprised to see how different the true me is. I've spent my whole life pretending to be, someone, Someone who is not me. I am not hyper 24/7. I am completely unreal. I am a scared little girl who doesn't know who she is. I am a torchered soul searching for truth. An

How fast by littlemissoutcast, literature

You Left Me To Die by littlemissoutcast, literature

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You Left Me To Die

I ran to you when I was in need I longed for you my brave knight on his noble steed I made you promise that you would never leave I got your word in you I believed I learned a lesson that day a lesson that I had already learned Those who play with fire are most likely to get burned You once told me something something I doubted with my soul You said you would be my dad I thought you could fill the hole I should have known that no one can stay forever I was stupid to think that you could be him, NEVER I loved you with my heart though I didn't admit it I learned the hard way my having a dad was never meant

I Try to Smile by littlemissoutcast, literature

For You by littlemissoutcast, literature

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For You

For you I would walk the distance I would walk a million miles Just to wipe the tears from your eyes For you I can see the unseen I can see what other's won't For you I can see the point in living I can keep living and believing in hope For you I will trust I will trust love once again For you I will follow my heart I will be able to believe in myself For you I can reach the unreachable I can see that I can do anything if I put my mind to it I wish I could show you How I feel That you swore that you Would never leave me But look what you did You were here one day And the next you were no where to be found How could you do

The Blades Edge by littlemissoutcast, literature

Go Away by littlemissoutcast, literature

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Go Away

Go away I am so sick of all your shit it is the pits you do not see what your doing to me when you put me down all the way to the ground I am so sick of you and him I wish you could go away and never come back another day you do not see the true me I wish you did though I am a pretty good person to know I wish you saw how much I fall when you say it all I hope you are there when I fall to the ground the whole world will stop going round I hope you see what your doin to me I hope you see the one true me 4-23-04

I'll Look Around by littlemissoutcast, literature

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I'll Look Around

I'll look around to see if your here I'll wish you were I hope you know That losing you is my biggest fear I'll try not to let it but it's going to show I hole your hand As tight and as long as I can No matter how hard I try it's getting harder to stand I feel like I am lost in a distant unknown land I will walk away with my head held high I know you know that I love you Though deep inside I am crying and want to die I hope you know that if I could I would stay here with you I look around and I see The world has finally slowed down There is something new both you and me Now I know I can finally stand on solid ground.

Soon by littlemissoutcast, literature

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Soon

Alone I stand in this world There is a light so out of reach I am so scared of what is to come The thought of the end and me all alone What I see in my dreams the ones I love And the ones I fear are all gone and I am here You may say "it's just a dream" but what you don't know Is that dream or real it will all come to show I know I know that very thought is Running through my mind too when, when is soon? Soon is now my dear friend soon is then and after and next This I know is a very frightening thing is soon is always in my mind No need to run and hide no need to scream and cry The thing that slipped my mind is th

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_blinders of choice by karincoma, literature

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_blinders of choice

You say they're taught to be blind and numb Pleading ignorance they fill their wardrobes with blinders Matching their iphone screen's colors Unconditionally loyal Trusting every word You say their drug of unawareness Provides them endless joy You say they're not stupid That they were taught to see Only what they need to sell the very same blinders To you or to me What are you doing different Longing to stay high Willing to be absent Gain the courage you need to point out they are blind People picking blinders For every single day Every single morning Before they even pray What you doing different 'Nothing' I could

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Dark Dream by littlemissoutcast, literature

Dark Dream

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About littlemissoutcast

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United States
Deviant for 19 years
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Current Residence: Lost in my Dream World
Favourite genre of music: goth rock,hard rock,metal,alternative,classic rock,regea
Favourite photographer: jessie, rachel
MP3 player of choice: iPod
Personal Quote: does the walker choose the path, or the path the walker?

Favourite Visual Artist

salivador dalihea, Van Gogh, Picasso, Monet

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

linkin park,

Favourite Writers

edgar allen poe,Francesca Lia Block

Tools of the Trade

razor blade and art supplies, pen and paper, alcohol

Other Interests

art, poetry, photography, modeling, reading, hanging out with friends

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littlemissoutcast

Jul 9, 2008

Devious Journal Entry

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i went and saw my mom and her family today, it was really upsetting, i wish that i wouldn't put myself in that position like i do, i always let myself be put in that position i can never get out of it when it comes to my family, i am so confused i am trying to straighten up my life, and every step i take towards getting my life together my family always tries to drag me down and i let them, i need to stop talking to my family for a while, i am not going to talk to my mom for quite a while. i think that this would be better for me if i were to do that.

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littlemissoutcast

Jul 6, 2008

tracking your past

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what if you could track your past by graphs what if every event that has happened that is hidden deep within you was traceable what if you found out a way to track them by tracing your dreams what would you be able to do to yourself to make you be able to write down your dreams after they happened without missing a cue the only thing that did that for me was heroin, what if i got back on that or what if i got back on oxy would that change how my nightmares happened?? im gonna find out, with the oxy that is not the heroin, i am not going to get back on that never again

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littlemissoutcast

Jul 4, 2008

flash backs

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another day another flash back, i am going to go fucking crazy today, it is a year anniversary and i am not doing so good right now, he's mad at me again, which sucks, it hurts when he is mad at me it really hurts. i can't even begin to explain how much it hurts when hes mad or upset with me i am going to drive to the gas station i need to go get another pack of cigs anyway and it might do me some good going out for a few minutes, i don't want to think right now i don't need to i don't need to think about whats going on inside my head right now, i hear his voice so loud right now and it won't fucking go away, he won't get out of my head help